The End is the Beginning is the End

Today marks exactly a month until I gradute with a degree in Secondary Education - English. Before that happens I still have to get in some of my study abroad paperwork, send my school my AP English scores that should already have but I'm trying not to get upset about it, finish my final essay porject for student teaching, and put together my ADEPT presentation. It may seem like a short list but in actuality each task - with the exception of the first two because otherwise I don't graduate - is going to take me until the end of April to complete and it's summertime... and the nothing.

Currently I am looking for a summer job. Most of my friends seem to have their summers lined up but student teaching has been taking up so much of my time that I haven't been able to give it much thought until now. I have put out some feelers for a couple of things I would really like to do but both of those emails have basically been asking for each group to invent a job for me. I know the groups well enough that this isn't as incredibly presumptous as it may sound. They are both groups I have worked with before but in the past I have had a smaller role in the organization and now I want to be more involved 1) because I like both of these groups and want to continue working with them and 2) I need a job that will carry me through at least most of the summer. I could have applied to be a summer RA at my univerisy but I still haven't actually sent in my application to the graduate school. That will happen tomorrow.

I'm not really sure what the point of this post is now that I have written out a whole two paragraphs. I think what it boils down to is that I'm stressed about what's next. I haven't even finished my undergrad and already I'm worres about what the summer will hold. I have had a summer job since the summer before my sneior year in high school and not having a job is not an option but I want it to be something that will look good on a resume and that I'll enjoy. This is going to be hard I relize. It seems that few people these days are working in a job they actually enjoy but I plan on always doing something that will help me further what I want to do. This means teaching or writing.

With that said, I need a job and there will come a point where I just have a get a job, any job, that will carry me through the summer.

And then there's writing. This summer would also be a great opportunity to do some serious writing. I have a feeling a writing schedule of some sort will need to be set up. I would love to set the goal of having the novel done by the end of the summer and then begin editing once the fall semester starts up.

Ok, since this blog is becoming increasingly pointless, with no real insights to give on my part, I am going to end it. Maybe later I will be able to write a post explainging what I had wanted to say in this one.